When I was five my parents moved to the UK from Zululand where they had been missionaries for 16 years. I’m embarking on a kind of pilgrimage to visit for the first time the place I was born and the places my mum and dad ministered. This journey to the place of my birth may seem somewhat egocentric, a lavish jaunt to the other side of the world under the guise of prayer and some ministry. However, I’m not too worried as to how it may seem, but rather have been somewhat amazed by the profound impact this pilgrimage is having upon me personally, and it’s only day 2! Today has been about the importance of authenticity, of being true to who I am and what I do.
The opportunity to speak this morning and offer some training too with Amanzimtoti Baptist Church showed me how important it is to be who I am, rather than pretend I’m someone else. This temptation to present another ‘persona’ is always close when I meet with new groups of people. Will they like me? What if they think I’m too weird/wild/wacky?! However, this morning was a beautiful opportunity to be true to who I am and share my heart, the work of The Light Project and preach too. As I did this the Holy Spirit flowed in power. One lady spoke with me and said that she felt so loved by God as I spoke. Somehow visiting the land where I was born has brought about a greater confidence in me to really enjoy who I am and how God has made me. You see you may, like me, struggle from time to time with identity and a sense of purpose in life.
Today I announce: I’m not a mistake. I have a purpose. God, my Heavenly Father knows me and loves me and I can be who he has made me to be, all the time!